Saturday, December 28, 2013

Seeking after Something.

What does it take to get someone to pay attention to you? Have you ever felt like nobody ever saw you for who you really were? Or have you always just been a shadow in someone's life? Maybe we've all felt like that at least once in our lives. We don't really seek attention but we also don't necessarily want to be ignored and put to the side.

At least that's what I feel that us as humans might feel like.

We want and seek attention but not in an intentional way. It's almost subconscious. It seeps under our skin and our thoughts. You do it every day and might not realize it. But why do we seek attention, whether it be intentionally or unintentionally?  Well, I don't mean to say that I know all the right answers but I have my own opinion and my own thoughts that might help discuss this.

Sometimes we seek attention for approval. Many of us would like the approval of at least one person in whatever it is that we are doing. In my own experience I've come to find out that I am the type of person that enjoys to have feedback on a major decision in my life and I tend to make said decision based on the approval or disapproval of that certain person. Now, is that a bad thing? It could possibly be so but at the same time it is my personal and mental way of being able to make a decision at all. There are people who could care less of what others think and I believe that is a great attribute to possess. Maybe I just need to gather myself and try it out one day; not need the approval of anyone but mine alone.

Some folks just want to be heard. I know certain people who just have to put their two cents in. And in some cases they put more than two cents in the jar. Might as well write a book while they're at it. It's not wrong to want to be heard. It's perfectly healthy I think because it allows someone to alleviate a mental process and let it become something real. You can think about it as being able to see what is going on in someone's mind and thought process. When you allow a person to speak and be heard you can really and truly begin to 'see' their minds at work. It can be quite a beautiful thing actually but it can also be just as bad as a wreck if their words become negative and unproductive.
 I am not perfect. Therefore I tell you that I am horrible at listening to people speak. I don't listen when they speak. Even less do I understand sometimes because my mind is not focused on what they are saying but instead on what I want to say as soon as they finish producing sound from their mouth. I tell you, I am a bad listener sometimes. Not all the time but I would like to change that. So listen to people more often because when you listen you can begin to understand they way their minds are working and also understand who they are by the way they speak. Don't be so quick to speak, take some time to listen. We all want to be heard.

I don't know they type of person you are. Only you do. Heck, you might not need approval of others to make a decision or don't really care if you are heard or not. But even if you're not either type you should let those that are that type of person carry out their way of doing so.

Why am I even saying any of this? Well, that's exactly my point. I just want to be heard. I'm not necessarily seeking your approval for anything but I am seeking to relieve my mental process and ideas that constantly run through this head of mine. We all have ideas that could change the world. If it's not changing the entire world it's changing the entire world of just one person. So when you feel like you have an amazing idea or goal in life, never allow yourself to let others shut you down simply because they don't want to hear you out. Go and make yourself be heard. The right person will have open ears at the right time.

The new year is shortly coming up and then it will also sweep by in the blink of an eye. Maybe this year can be different for all of us. Seek what is in your heart. "For where your treasure is, there your heart will also be". (Luke 12:34)  What is your treasure?

Saturday, December 21, 2013

Switching to change.

So today my phone service was cut off. Well not exactly cut off. Instead I cancelled my service with Sprint since I was at the end of my two year contract. And if you know me well enough you'll know that I've been with them since I first  ever had a cell phone. It's been a long and painful road for Sprint and I. To tell you the truth I'm not really sure why I spent so much time and money with them. The only probable reason is because they hooked me with their reduced phone if i signed up for two test with them. Actually, that's probably where many of us end up. We want the  newest technology and we will get it any way we can. Even if that means getting a two year contract. 

Not anymore. I'm pretty much tired of paying around $90/month for my iPhone. Don't get me wrong I like my phone very much but the monthly payment is burning my wallet and I can't do it anymore. It's time I do something different and change course in one area if my life. 

I know it sounds silly but this is a big step and change for me. If you think about it though, it's something that we can all relate to. Something as simple as switching cell phone services and devices can make a big impact in our lives. Sometimes we become so accustomed to something that it almost becomes a part if who we are. We identify ourselves with that something and in my case it was my love/hate relationship with my phone and Sprint. That's why this is sort big a big deal in a small way for me- if that makes any sense to you. And it's not like I'm completely leaving them since I'll be trying out Boost Mobile and I know they all use the same network. 

I'm just trying to save some money here! $50/month won't be as bad as the $90 and hopefully the service won't be that terrible. As long as I can keep my iPhone I'll be a happy man! 

Another rant and opinionated opinion of mine that make sense to me and, well, hopefully makes sense to you. I think we all want to save money in some way, no matter how small the amount and this is one way that I'm trying to be able to reach my goal of paying off my debts!! I'll let y'all know if it's worth going to Boost or not! Or maybe someone can tell me if it's worth it or not?  

Plans can change when you make plans

Our plans are many in our life. We have plans for tomorrow, next week, month and even next year! We go ahead and make reservations for whatever plan we have and in our heads that's all we think of. We never stop and think of what night happen if we never get to that day. Plans might have to unexpectedly change when things that are out of your control happen. It's always a bummer when this happens of course because nobody enjoys a ruine vacation or planned day. 

For me that day happened yesterday. As you might already know I had plans to save money and pay off some debts within the next year and get that out of my life. Well yesterday my car broke down to make things short. I also don't have a working cell phone because my two year contract ended with Sprint (which I am quite happy about). I am happy I ended but it seemed like it happened at a not so good time. I'm not sure how much the repair will cost but I have also been contemplating buying a car. I know this seems like a bad idea especially if I'm trying to save money but my car is ready to be sold or sent off somewhere needed. I'm making decent money and if I can get a low monthly payment then I know I can get it. I just don't want to add to my debts at all. So if that doesn't happen my next choice is to fix only what is needed on my car and even if it's beat up and dented I will drive it for at least one more year (see how I just made another plan?) and get me something nice. 

And what I'm trying to say is that when we make plans in our life we need to be ready for the unexpected. Sometimes out plans will be just fine but other times we will be disappointed. But do not worry because Gods plans are higher than ours. It's true in my case when I look back at my life up until now. Sometimes it's because he is disciplining you and wants you to know that he cares for you. I know darn right that I need discipline in my life since I can't seem to get some on my own. 

So I have not a car or cell phone. Today I will try and use one if my mom's phones to see if that works. It's not my iPhone but I don't care right now. As long as I have a phone I'll be okay. And well my car is another story but hopefully I can do something about it. 

Thursday, December 19, 2013

Going on Break.

The struggle is real folks. We all have struggles. The thing I'll be dealing with these next two weeks will be the break I get from school for Christamas/ New Year's.

Now the actual two weeks off will not be my struggle or issue but rather what I'll be doing with my time. I know that one side of me wants to just sit back and relax; sleep late and wake up late. The other side of me wants to be as productive as possible and use my time wisely. I have a feeling that both sides will play themselves out somehow and I'm okay with that. But the thing that I want to do most out of the two is to use my time wisely.

I'm currently throwing around some possible ideas in my head on what I can do to stay busy during my break. There are certain things that I need to get done first and will involve spending some money. For one, my car has been making some strange noises and I have an idea of what it might be, and as much as I don't want to spend my money on that, I need to, unless I want my wheels to fly out from under my car while driving down the interstate. Hopefully it won't be over $200 though. If it is I will possibly cry. Okay maybe not. But it will hurt my poor little bank account. There are other smaller things that I'd like to do that involve spending money but I am on a financial diet right now and I need to spend as little as possible.

There are some ways that I plan on making some extra cash. Last night I remembered that I haven't sold my plasma in a while. Although it only gives you $20 it's worth it. It's free money! It takes about 45 minutes to an hour to complete the process but they have WiFi there and you can stay busy while you're there. I might do that a few times while I can. You guys should definitely try it! Here is a link to the place that I use:

I hope that I can accomplish two things during my break; save money and make money. I know that my life might seem like it's consumed on making money right now and maybe it is just a little bit. I just want to make sure that this doesn't happen. My goal is not to get rich but simply to pay off my debts and make extra money when possible while enjoying this life. I pray that God will guide me through this process that I know will be difficult and long. I'm trying to make the best out of this week and also this journey I'm on about saving money.

Wednesday, December 18, 2013

One down, still a lot to go.

So as I had told you I will be posting on here all about me goal of paying off my debts. As I said it won't be an easy path or enjoyable one bit and I know I'll have to give up some things in order to make this happen.

Well, today was one of those days where I had to let something so awesome go. At my job I received a bonus pay of $460. As much as I hate to say it I did not spend it on myself or on Christmas gifts. Instead I went ahead and decided that I need to go all in with this goal of  getting rid of my debt. So what did I do with the bonus? I made a full payment on a ticket that I had from a few years ago. I've already gotten two letters in the mail for not paying (since 2008!). It's a long story as of why I didn't pay back then but it'll just bore you. Just know that it was all a misunderstanding!

Honestly, it hurt so much to have to give up free money. But I saw this bonus as an opportunity to use it to help me pay me debt off. It's sort of like a freebie or a head-start on my long journey ahead. I'd be struggling to pay off that debt alone if it wasn't for this money I received. Plus, I've read on other sites and blogs that anytime you have free money available, whatever it may be from, then to use all of that free money into paying off your debt. That means ANY money. Money laying around, money you find on the street, in your room, pockets, laundry, car, WHEREVER! Just as long as you use that money to help yourself out.

Anyways, that was my first encounter with paying off the things that are holding me back. Like I said it will hurt a lot when it comes to money because for one thing I really want to invest in a digital camera the Rebel t3i to be exact. Check it out at this link:

I know it's affordable but the reason I want it is because I have wanted one since about two years ago. It's been a dream of mine to finally begin on a passion that has been stirring inside of me and I really want to feed on that and grow and see where I can go with it. Photography is something that I enjoy and want to pursue and with all of my debts I have been putting off buying this camera. I no longer want to have to do this. I want to be able to afford the things I want to buy and not worry about cost or if I have to pay off something first. I will do my best to purchase this camera while I cut back on spending because I really thing I can use this camera to make some extra income on the side, which is another topic of discussion for my next blog.

There you have it guys, my first payment to my line of debts. It is cleared off and it feels good! I know I had to give up on the bonus check but I think it will be all worth it in the end.

God bless and keep checking my blog out! Share it if you'd like!

Making Progress

I think that around this time of year many of us will be making some type of changes in our lives. I'm sure there will be many with a new year's resolution to lose weight for sure. This one is always on the list. And if it's not losing weight it's getting back in shape, which is not bad in itself. The only bad part of all this is that some of us just can't keep a promise to ourselves.

I don't know what it is that you will be doing differently this year but what I do know is that whatever it is that we do we need to stick with it. There's nothing greater than looking back at the end of the year and feeling satisfied, accomplished and proud of completing all of your goals and desires. For many of us like me we look back and are disappointed at what we did not accomplish. I don't know about you but I am tired of saying I will do something and then not doing it. It's about time something inside of me changes. And it all starts with me. Nobody else will make you do it. There won't be anybody in this world that needs that change as much as you do.

So if anything, drown out all the noise from everyone else, all the negative comments, all the put-me-downs, and more especially the self-doubt you have for yourself. Our worst enemy when trying to accomplish something is simply ourselves. When you are able to overcome your self and your thoughts and all the chaos inside of you- then you will be able to change and accomplish many things in your life.

With that said, go out and achieve your goals! We all have different goals but we have them for a reason. They are something we want out of this life and that must mean a lot to us if we are willing to put time and effort to do something about it.

I'm ready to make some changes in my life and, God willing, He will help me get through this because alone I won't be able to go very far. I know things like these are difficult to achieve but it's possible. And I also want to make sure that while I encounter some changes I will be able to focus my time and thoughts on God.

My year long goal (hopefully shorter)

So today I thought I'd let you guys know about something that I usually don't tell others about. It's also something I'm not very proud of and that's probably why I keep it to myself, unless you are family or a really close friend, then you might know.

So what is this dark secret I talk about? Debt. Yes, I have some debts in my life that I need to get rid of soon or else they will consume my life. This has been a problem for me ever since I first got my credit card my first year of college. I was about 18-19, not exactly sure which one. The thing is, I actually started off really good at taking care of my payments on time and paying off in full the total balance. The only payments I was making were for gas purchases and maybe eating out once or twice a month, but I always made sure I paid them off when I got paid from my part-time job. I knew that I wanted credit eventually and so when I received a letter in the mail offering my a credit card in which I could choose by credit limit I was excited and sure enough I signed up for it. About a couple of weeks later I received my credit card in the mail!

Eventually I had to stop working at my part-time job, which was only on the weekends, to be able to complete a semester of student-teaching which is like an internship pretty much. Well when I quit that job I saw it as justifiable to use my credit card because it was my only source of 'money'. I was doing my internship full-time and I thought I couldn't get a job because I was too tired from 'working'. I really didn't think it was necessary for me to get a night job somewhere in town where I lived. I guess I saw it as unpleasant but now I wish I could go back and get a job so I wouldn't be in the situation I am now.
Another big mistake of mine was that my last semester of college I had only one class left to finish off my degree and I decided to stay on campus in the dorm rooms. Big mistake. What I should have done was commute back and forth from home since the class was only Tuesday/Thursday but I thought that it would be good for me to live out the college experience to the fullest. Yeah, sure, I had a good time but if I could go back I would definitely change my decision of staying there. Well, anyways, that last semester there cost me to not get my diploma  until I paid off my room/board for the last semester. I didn't have any money to pay that balance off since I was no longer on scholarship. That last semester put me at around $2,500 in debt and that's not including the credit card debt I had already accumulated.

And of course, there are other debts that I have at the moment that have been adding up and to be honest it all began that last year of college. All of this happened because I did not have common sense and didn't know how to manage my money correctly. There are many things I could have changed that last year but that is unattainable right now. The only thing I can do is to correct my bad mistakes and bad habits and learn to make the right choices when it comes to handling my money.

My goal is to be able to pay off ALL of my debt which totals to around $9,000 in a credit card, loans, and unpaid bills. I know this amount is not much to some people and you might say it's chump change. I agree it's not that large of an amount but this is something that I want to get off my chest and off my conscience for good. I'm tired of not being able to enjoy certain things because in the back of my mind my debts are dancing around reminding me that I can't enjoy life to the fullest.

I would like you to join me in this year-long process (hopefully shorter) to keep me motivated and also so you can see me progress and struggles. I know this will not be an easy thing to do and I WILL have to give up on certain things that I enjoy but in the end it will be worth it.

So please comment below and motivate! Be blessed!

Tuesday, December 17, 2013

Lecrae: "I'm Turnt"

Ok so if you don't already know, I enjoy listening to Lecrae. He is Christian. He is a rapper. So as he puts it he is a rapper that happens to be Christian. Anyways, this boy just came out with this video for his track "I'm Trunt" and honestly I love the video and the way it was portrayed. Some of us, including myself, might not like it at the beginning but if you just think about it for a while you will understand this video and realize that even if he is at a party it doesn't mean a thing.

I really enjoy Lecrae's continuing ways of shocking people with his songs, lyrics and videos as of lately. It's like he's pushing us to think outside of our little "Christian box". Many of us like to do this and play it safe- we don't like to talk about it put in reality we do play it safe in this world. We all need to have more boldness like Mr. Lecrae and many others like him.

So go get turnt up.

Monday, December 9, 2013

If Today were better, we ask.

Not every day is going to go the way you want it to go. But the good thing is that you still have that day to make the best of it. Some things might come up that you weren't expecting with open arms and they just sort of landed where you were at and how you had planned your day. So now your day seems ruined right?


Just because our day hasn't gone our way doesn't mean we have to pout about it and complain to the whole world. Well, okay, you can complain just a little bit but only enough to get it out of your system. I think it's somewhat healthy to just let it all out of your system but not all day.

I've come to realize that I have been the type of person that would complain A LOT about how things weren't going my way or I didn't like this or that. Some things might be out of our control but others aren't. So yeah, things would not go my way and a long list of complaints would follow through behind for sure. What I didn't realize was that by complaining so much I wasn't really helping my situation at all. Instead, I was making it worse by negatively advancing my situation. In other words, I wasn't going anywhere by complaining. None of us will ever get where we want to if all we do is complain. And besides, nobody likes a whiner.

One thing I have learned is that I can accept the situation for what it is: a glitch or sidestep to what I'd like to achieve. This day might not be going all in my favor but I can change the 'negative' for something positive.

 I know that God didn't call me to complain about this life He has allowed me to have for the moment. Life is full of beauty and awe that if we don't pay attention to it we will miss it entirely. There is a story once told by a guy named Jesus in which He explained that there were certain seeds that fell on different ground. One fell on a pathway, another on rocks, one on thorns and the other on good soil. Each one grew but quickly or assuredly died away, except for one of course. Yes, the one that landed on good soil was the one seed that grew and became strong. Why? Well the others were like people who listen to the Word of God and quickly forget about it or like the seed that fell in thorns, it grows but it is quickly swallowed up by the thorns which could also be thought of as life and its' worries.

We have so many worries in life that we forget that this life is not about them but instead about our trust through the worries that our life can go on and will go on. We don't have to be sad or lament the fact that maybe this day just didn't go our way. We can accept it and make it as positive as possible because if we go about our day resenting it we have given up on life. I can just think about how much we give up when we let small things take away our joy and happiness. There are people out there who need our help whether it be small or large. We worry too much sometimes but we forget that Jesus said to take his yolk because it is light compared to ours. Sometimes we have allowed to carry this yolk with us for a long time, never giving to the One who carries it for us. \

Give your yolk to God. Don't worry so much about life and its' problems. Problems will always be there. Instead, make something positive out of the 'negative' that is going on today.

Stay positive and be happy! The simple but extraordinary fact that you are alive is enough to be thankful for what this day has brought you.

-La Vida Libre

Sunday, December 8, 2013

Get dirty. Go after what you want.

Today was an interesting day in a certain way. I went out and did something I haven't done in a while: shooting. Now, please, don't get this confused with shooting for hunting reasons but instead I set out to shoot photos of the landscape and nature around my neighborhood. 

Some of you may or may not know but I have a passion and deep interest for photography and have never really gotten dirty with it fully but I think that is going to change pretty soon. I've always enjoyed taking photos of anything pretty much. It's a way to see life for what it is already and to capture it and keep it with you. It's definitely been a tough time for me when it comes to purchasing a good quality camera that I can use to further expand this interest of mine. Right now all I've been able to use is my iPhone 4. I know it's not the best device to use when shooting but it's all I have.

 I simply cannot wait until I can purchase the camera I am seeking to get- the Canon Rebel t3i. I've done quite a bit of research on this camera and honestly I'm happy with what I've seen so far from its' capabilities. The really neat thing about this camera is its' ability to shoot good quality video that has a swivel camera that can come in handy in tough situations and hard to see moments. 

There are many others like me who have a desire and passion to pursue dreams that only seem very distant, but I know that with dedication from our part and motivation from the right people we can all achieve what we only dream about. If we could all accomplish our good intents with good motives we would make this world a better place. 

I can't wait to get my hands on my Rebel t3i!!!!!!!!!

God bless. 

Spend a little more this Christmas on giving time.

For someone like me who has always seen Christmas as something entirely different I thoroughly enjoyed this link. Check it out and ponder about this for a while. Sometimes we just outdo ourselves without even knowing it and we never stop to think about why it is we spend so much on gifts. Some gifts are worth way more than others and it doesn't have to be bought with money.

So with that said check out this link and, like I said, think about what this man says for a while.

Beautiful Eulogy - Vital Lens (@beautifuleulogy)

Friday, December 6, 2013

Sigue La Vida Libre y sigue a mrjaguaru2

Daniel, una persona y amigo que conoci en El Paso, Texas hace dos años. Puro recuerdo beunisimo y bien machin!!
Es un amigo que tal vez no tenga mucha conexion con el pero lo admiro muchisimo por su perspectiva en la vida. Tiene videos que te hacen reir y pensar de la vida y ademas es una buena persona que sigue sus sueños!

Check out this video please!

Wednesday, December 4, 2013

What if?

Lately I've been feeling really really really inspirational in the sense that I've been itching bad to fulfill my dreams and ideas. I know it sounds ridiculous to some and even to myself to be honest. It's sometimes crazy to think that you could fulfill your dreams and hopes and make them a reality. For some people these dreams are to become a professional athlete, movie star, doctor, lawyer, police officer, teacher, or whatever it may be. Many people have been able to accomplish their dreams but for others these dreams are different. For some folks their dreams are not to become famous or make a lot of money but instead to live a life of happiness and contentment where we do not feel pressured to the American Dream. The American Dream- what is it really and what importance or significance does it have now? Is it really worth chasing it? Some of you might say that, yes, it is well worth it to get a good education that will reap the benefits of a good salary and which in effect will provide for a good quality of life.

I've come across a blog, , that has raised and sparked an interest on some things that have been on my mind recently. One of those things is asking myself if what I'm doing now is what I really want to do? Am I living and fulfilling my dream? Have I ever even stopped to think about what I'd like to do with my life instead of going with the flow and following what I believe I am supposed to be following?

This blogger, Allison Vesterfelt, has a free book download ( ) that I have began reading. Just like her, I've asked myself the same questions as she has and have had the same desires. And just like she states, "not everyone will have the same decisions or outcomes as hers  but we will all have a similar journey and it all begins with us". I encourage you to download it and read it.

I'm not saying that I am not thankful or gracious for being where I am at now. Don't get me wrong, God has blessed me greatly and abundantly, but sometimes it feels as if I'm just following a path that we all follow just because it is what everyone else does or we have been told it is what we are supposed to do. We have become almost like slaves to this world, not having time for ourselves and fully enjoying what we would love to do in reality.

I hope to God that this is all from Him. It is said that by our fruits we will be know if we are legitimate or not and I hope this is fruitful. I ask for your prayers in this matter and just being free. After all, this blog is about living as if we are free. La Vida Libre.

My Last Days: Meet Zach Sobiech

I think this is worth watching for you guys. It's sad that we need inspiration to live our lives to the fullest when someone is dying. Please watch and share this with friends and family. God bless!

Monday, December 2, 2013

A Time for Change During a Time of Changing seasons.

It's December. Why does it seem that this month has arrived so quickly? It seems like not too long ago I was outside running shirtless under the warm sun. Now the trees are changing colors and the temperature has dropped. This is not a post to complain about the changing weather or time but instead about the change that I'd like to see in my life and other peoples' lives.

During this time of the year everyone is always busy with Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Year's. So it's a time to celebrate and enjoy your time with family and friends. Many of us will go visit family out of town, others will leave the country, and some will stay home. Regardless of what we do around this time of the year most of us will constantly be busy and hurried trying to manage our time wisely. Don't get me wrong, there is nothing with visiting family and enjoying time with them. I am in much need to spend some quality time with my own family because I feel like I lack that connection. Regardless, what I'd like to get to is that during this busy time of our life let us not forget about those who are less fortunate. And let me get this straight- I, myself, do not want to forget about the less fortunate. It seems that every year around this time I wished that I could do something worthy of my time. I had always wanted to either give my time away to someone else by helping or being there for them. I always planned and imagined but I never went through with any plans. I have to be honest with myself and with others that I hate this part about me. My mind runs wild with amazing ideas and plans but they are never put to practice and mad alive. I believe that if we all could bring our hopes and dreams to reality our life would be in a better place. Not just for ourselves but for the better of other people. Many times, like I said, I've thought of ways to help other people whether it be financially, emotionally, or physically but I never went through with the process.

It's time to change this cycle. It is time to actually talk the talk and walk the walk. I like to talk a lot about what I'd like to do and what great ideas I have -great ideas I might add- but I have never actually accomplished nearly any of those said ideas. Proclaiming them here or any other place will be better than not saying anything at all.

I want to help at least one person a day during this month of December. I don't know how exactly it will happen but I'd like to help the less fortunate and be of good service to someone.

 I know not many people read this blog, and that's okay with me, but I'd like to do this for myself. I want to change a bad habit of mine that only produces regret, sadness, and helplessness. I am beyond positive and sure that if I could accomplish even half of what I have proposed myself to do I would be a happier person. I don't want fear of what will happen ruin and drive my life. Breaking these walls will not be easy for me but it will be possible.

"The risk not taken is far more dangerous than the risk taken" - Unknown.

Sunday, December 1, 2013

Let It drive you until it moves you.

There are times when you want to feel happy inside. The world around you seems hopeless and helpless.  This has been the way I've felt for quite a while now. Things that used to bring me happiness now bring no satisfaction. What happens in our lives that this certain occasion happens? We could all possibly ask and answer our own question because we know what's troubling us. I don't want to make this longer but I just want to say that good will always prevail evil in the end. Happiness will come anew after a dark and stormy momen in life. I'm thankful that God can provide for me a simple glimpse of his amazing and infinite awesomeness. As I'm driving back to my place of residency I get hit (not literally) by this thought and feeling of peace and happiness, something that I have not felt in a very long time. You can call it a dry spell or a walk in the desert or whatever it may be. The fact of the matter is that this moment while driving back was strong enough to make me pull over and pull into a gas station to let everyone know. I want to let you know that God is not just good, he is amazing and wondeful. He seeks sacrifice from a broken and contrite heart. He seeks those who seek him. He awards a repentant heart. He gives joy when the storm is raging.

Be happy and enjoy this life you have now. Don't stress so much- it's not worth it.