Tuesday, August 30, 2016

My Savior

I was at the verge of walking seemingly voluntary into that dark, deep and solitary hole that I seem to rush into as the venom seeps through my thoughts, my heart and into my hands. There was no stopping the force and power of the poison that lurks within my thoughts as my mind and heart start to wonder. My heart and my flesh may fail but you O Lord are my portion forever! My heart and my flesh do fail. They have failed me many times as I recoil in thoughts after opening my eyes to the aftermath of my own destruction. My mind races and seeks a way out of the price to be paid for my doings. I can't find a way out, I search for some way- somehow that I can run from this. Where can I go? There isn't a place  I can hide that will not be seen. He sees me in public and sees me in private. Where can I hide? My mind starts to race again. My actions seem irreparable and destructive. My soul bleeds and weeps for my own good. My souls cries out to You O Lord because on my own I cannot seem to understand that my actions prove nothing but death. Death to my soul! My rescue comes from you God and in this moment I desperately search for you. Where are you! Loneliness surrounds me and as I scan the horizon and my proximity for you I do not see You. Where are you? You are in me as I am in you O Lord. Your word teaches me this and this I know. Do I continue to defile you and be content? My body is your temple in which you dwell in. May you be pleased to do as you wish because I do not seem to understand that my life, my body, is but a fragile being- a simple breath that is here one moment and forever gone the next. You are the Author of Life! My life. You provide my rescue when I need it. You are my rescue. I cannot ignore You when you speak to me. Do I push aside your word and your truth for a moment in life only to pay the price forever? Your light is in me. I am the light of the world which you put in me to take into the darkness and shine the light. I search for a way to shine this light and so I look for darkness. As I look for it I see my own reflection and there in my solace I find a patch of darkness within myself. Let your light shine!! Let my light shine! God, my life is nothing without you! You are the light unto my path. Yet I know very well that sin will continue to dwell in me. It is not of my own doing or choosing, but rather from a curse into which I was born. We fight against this darkness but we do not fight alone. It is not at all triumphant, though, as we cling close to you God. Lord you are my rescue! You have taken me from my own destruction!  As I was walking into the pit of death, of darkness, You, God, Father, rescued me. Your light shines brighter than the sun. Today you have given me your grace and mercy without limits. Your love for me goes deeper than my thoughts can comprehend. For that I am grateful.

Wednesday, June 1, 2016

School's out Guns out!

School's out guns out! Okay, so if you didn't know, I am a high school Spanish teacher. The kids were out for summer last Friday but staff has to stay another week, No biggie. I can do that- no kids!

Anyways, I'm excited for this summer (as always right?) and for the plans that I've got so far. One of the big things I'll be doing is going on a mission trip to Nicaragua, a country in Central America. I am super pumped! We will be doing all sorts of things there to show the love and gospel of Christ. I don't know why but one of the things that I'm most excited about is building a home for one of the families there. The home will take about $2,800 to build. Only close to a thousand has been raised but I have faith that we will build it. God will provide, no doubt. I'll probably have more on the mission trip when I get back so keep an eye out for that!

I also want to do some fun/interesting things this summer. I want to overcome the fear of failure, especially the fear of failing at doing things you feel very passionate about. God has given me certain talents and gifts and if I don't use them (same for you!) he will take them away and bless someone else with it that WILL  do something with them.

Well, hope you have an awesome and blessed day!

Thursday, May 5, 2016

Jeremiah 1

So I was reading the Bible a while back and I started reading in the book of Jeremiah. I think a lot of people have read of heard of the book of Jeremiah, specifically Jeremiah 29:11. That verse has become a popular verse among all Christians in one way or another and there's much reason for it too.

I like to know that God has plans for us. I mean, who wouldn't want to let God bless them? It'd be crazy right? 

Well, I began reading chapter 1 of Jeremiah in this case. I'm not sure why I started reading there but I'm glad I did. In fact, I had probably read this chapter before at some point, but only this time I got something in return that I am thankful for. 

Here are a few things I got from this chapter that I think are very important for me and for you:
1. God will call you and give you a mission as to what you are to do.
2. We tend to be afraid of the tasks God has set for us and make excuses
3. He has already assured us that He is with us, so why be afraid?
4. He has given us what we need to say and some will oppose us for doing so
5. God is always watching and He will get across what needs to be done one way or another. 
6. God calls us to be ready and to not be afraid of doing what he calls us to do. So many of us are afraid though. He will make us look foolish if we are afraid. 
7. He has fortified us. 
8. People will fight us but will fail. 

I like this chapter because it is different from the usual 29:11 verse that we see a lot in the Jeremiah teachings. We tend to see that verse a lot and there is nothing wrong about it, I just think that maybe we see it so much beause it might be something athat we like to hear- that God has amazing things planned for us! It seems that it's something that requires no hard work or dedication. But, in chapter 1 God calls us to stand up and do work! Now we actually have to do something for God that requires some talking and putting our faith to work. I'm glad this is here. It makes me realize that I have to do work along with my faith in God. I can't just sit around and expect free handouts from Him. He calls us to be bold and to put our trust in Him. He has made us like a fortified city, a pillar of iron and a bronze wall. It's refreshing to read this passage. Maybe I should continue to read more often huh? Of course I should! I shouldn't even be questioning that!